Today the painting came together a lot better because I surrendered. I worked on it for about 6 hours straight.
Last night I was so angry while I was painting (even though I was praying and pouring good energy into the image, I was angry and deeply hurting at the Bureau of Land Management for creating this situation and at the people who disrespect the Wild Horses and their rights) and I was operating on my will.
I worked on it last night for about 10 hours – priming the wood and then putting everything together.
Today I asked for God’s help again, from a more surrendered place and everything flowed… I still have to work on the sky and a few other details…The sky has to be dark enough so I can put in the constellation but I am probably going to make it partially day. Also I still probably want to put the 2 trees in on the sides.
I was angry about the “whirled”. As I was falling asleep last night I began to say the Serenity Prayer…
I do feel a LOT better today. Just accepting things as they are. I am done trying to change them…for the moment. But being an idealist anarchist, I am sure I will fall into it again, but hopefully not. I can’t do anything about how people and society has changed.
I have accepted though, that people have changed. I was reading this book by Master Chinyi Lin about his experience as a child growing up in China as the “Cultural Revolution” took over – and if feels like everything feels now –
so far… it’s been such a struggle…sometimes I forget – I can’t just wham-bam out an art piece…I am going to share my struggle – I did not even WANT to start this painting during Mercury RX – which will be fully over at the END of April – but I am on a tight Moon schedule – so I am just going to get it to a “stopping” point – and leave it till the 2nd or 3rd week. The full moon is on April 13 – and Mercury goes direct April 8 – so I am not very hopeful – because the shadow is bumpier (for me, because my Sun is in the same house as Mercury) than the RX itself – but I had to get something down.
In addition, I am having a lot of sadness about fake people and the disintegration of the world as I know it. My husband and I are planning our exit strategy to our property…but it’s hard for me to be here now and to plan for the future.
Although once we are out there, I can adopt some mustangs and burros of my own – at least 1 of each. But when? In 10 years? or after/before 2030? It’s up to the globalists, I guess, when we make a run for it – we are going to stay on-grid as long as possible – and jump right as the ship sinks.
This is the painting that as I left it for myself, last night. I realized that the mountains made it impossible to put in the Big Horn Sheep (Ram) that I am using to symbolize Aries…
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